.12:10 AM
Over the last few weeks, I received two of my midterms back. I'm extremely disappointed with my results. Where do I stand? Average. I hate being average. Being average means you're just like everyone else. The main reason I'm pissed off at myself is because I'm only doing 4 courses this term and it's supposed to be an easy term. My main problem is that lately I've been oversleeping and just lazy. It sucks. Even though I marks don't really matter this term, I'm still concerned. Sometimes I wish I was just smarter. Things would be so much easier. I feel as though sometimes I need to work twice as hard as others just to get to where I am.
And I keep worrying about the future. Like what the fuck will I do when I finish school. I always think about this everyday.... I need to put my mind at ease.
february 27, 2002
.11:43 PM
Yay! I found my winter gloves that I lost a couple of weeks ago. I found them sitting on a table in the cafeteria. It's kind of strange how I don't recall seeing them anywhere last week (reading week). I wonder if someone accidentally took them home for reading week and then realized that they weren't theres and then returned them. Oh well. Hopefully they haven't been worn or worn by someone with dirty hands. I guess I'll find out in a few days when rashes start developing on my hands.