And I wondered to myself at the time... does it get any better than this? It seems like it just peaked back then and everything made sense. Sort of. You're looking at the good times gone by and you wish you could turn back the clock. The future is coming and you're scared.
.12:10 AM
Over the last few weeks, I received two of my midterms back. I'm extremely disappointed with my results. Where do I stand? Average. I hate being average. Being average means you're just like everyone else. The main reason I'm pissed off at myself is because I'm only doing 4 courses this term and it's supposed to be an easy term. My main problem is that lately I've been oversleeping and just lazy. It sucks. Even though I marks don't really matter this term, I'm still concerned. Sometimes I wish I was just smarter. Things would be so much easier. I feel as though sometimes I need to work twice as hard as others just to get to where I am.
And I keep worrying about the future. Like what the fuck will I do when I finish school. I always think about this everyday.... I need to put my mind at ease.